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Sunday, September 20, 2009
@9/20/2009

prelim had finally over...now the real battle begins.. o levels

this few days went out hahas...sat went out with jason,carmen,zhi hui,hong leung , felicia , melvin to eat oppositing bugis junction dere de steamboat... went to buy cake gto surprise carmen lol...indded she gong gong dunno gt cake untill we settled the meal...the food there was pretty average compared to coka or zhen fa but there prawns were MUCH fresher hahas...i are abt 30prawns ... but not worth the 21.40 hahas...but the day was well spend...but my pocket was BADLY BURNT ... hahas...when i came home was abt 11.30 knowing tt my mum will nag so i tried to call her asking her need buy anything hahas...but they said dun need lolololololol. den i walk pas durian stall my parents QUITE like durians so i decided to check the price 6box 10bucks i was like wow cheap so i decided to choose 6 newest box den went up my mummy DIDNT EVEN nagg at me ... hahas pro pro pro n they still say i know how to choose BLEH =)

today went tuition le rush down to ain house sorry to ming li , jason , hong leung , melvin , zhi hui and the person whom invited us there AIN i m late because tuition and they actually waited for me till we started to eat lunch n by then was alrealy 2pm!...we ate n watch trranfromer den played uno n murder [ things happened ] but shld be fine i hope ... hahas ... den leave at 5pm ... took green packet?hahas...first time going friends hse to n to eat somemore malay de siah!...lol...thanks AIN... after tt went home den eat eat fish n oh ne at SIn Ming road dere den went popular bought headset lol...earpiece i mean hahas....20bucks heng my dad was dere HE WAS MY SPONSOR FOR THE DAY!...hahahs


Wednesday, September 09, 2009
@9/09/2009

long time since i post here except the notice...
i post post post no one tag sibeisian no poiint hahas

ok la nowadays i m slacking down...idk why
i wna studybut not enuf motivation...
tuition-tuition-tuition is the way i study...
Zzz...even though not much help btu at least 3hours i m studying
i m geting 3hours more everyday also to study at home...6hours should be sufficent =)

Wednesday, September 02, 2009
@9/02/2009

i m INVITING all passer-bys who like to write RUBBISH on other peoples blog to tag my tagboard...come n try n test my patience...

Sunday, July 26, 2009
@7/26/2009

it had been ages since i blogged to lazy n cant bother to...many things happened this couple or weeks / days...happy n sad .. i had been too buzy with tuition / mock exams n things liddat something that amazed myself is tt i used less than 20message in a week cant believe n most messages were official use ones like contacting cousin in dpa things n my mother etc etc ... i had been up my mind already 90oddd days to o lvls n i hadnt been doing much revision n i had to start soon i missed the outings n etc but is okay my parents were planning tons of activities for me during the weekends ( sat ) for instance last week i went bowling and snooker n had a grand feast at chon bang n today i had pool n bowling n steamboat i hope that sat comes faster everyweekend , i m very happy n sad jsut now we went to shopping mall to shop and i gt the trolley n pass by someone who is wipping the floor there was no signboard saying pls dun use the passageway here or something to indicate that i cant move over there n i moved over the cleaner come n shout at me " hey boy i cleaning the floor you dont make my boss scold me can !!! " when my dad it he was super furious he screamed him back " you got out any signboard or anything to indicate we cant pass a not and dun anyhow scold people can etc etc" there were many eyes on us and many were agreeing to wht my dad do n even my mother who dont like my dad to shout or scream at the people in the public didnt say much as she say is not our mistake at all n because she knows that my dad cared for me not wanting anyone to bully any of us so he did tt i m sad because my dad flared his temper because of me but happy as well as i know he cared so much for me n my family members! i love daddy n mummy!


now weekend is ending i dread to go to school n i m nervous for the DPA interview at NPY how?i had to faced it bravely i believe my family members n teachers would be givving mi my support!i will not disappoint myself Chin Yang you can do it! even if fail you had give yourself a very good account for it!

i dont want to think much abt relationship n craps these would be secondaries not the primary thing tt i shld be doing so i shall not care even though i noe i cant forget n let go let the time resolve everything i believe tt seeing u happy = i would be happy i think tt you would find yr own happiness soon n wish tt would happen as well. take care

Saturday, June 13, 2009
@6/13/2009

err today nothing much i woke up at 10 plus den texas holdem again lol
i m crazy for it now..idk why n dun ask me why...
acdicted lol...den went aunty house to slack etc etc
bought "air lo vera" thing to apply on my face n my back because idk gt some pokerdots lol
den makan steamboat after that my cousin were crazy thinking to change hairstyle ( girls )
den went website to see den my uncle jiu some comment some cork...lol
he cant style because botak ( no offence )
den crazy cousin start camwhoring den ask me in Zzz
Jin Jie become the victim...his hair as tied till like a girl lol
but damn cute because his eyes very cute n nice
i want to thin my hair soon too thick lerrhs...
BUT BUT BUT not touching my frindge...lol finally over eyes le waiting for 3weeks sia
i change my side fridge to right but liddat can see my scar lol...
anyway lazy post le wahahas




i dun mind waiting le...i really missed u ... yr image is floating everywhr in my mind n soul...
my heart is here ... i would be always ready to give u a helping hand whenever needed i need ya in my life le since 16 april till now till forever?

@6/13/2009

went k box today quite fun la but i simply cnt let go someone from my mind
err we sing sang crap alot lol..den we accept a challenge from the staffs there
we play big small..if we win 2 games out of 3 we will get each person a free drink n if we lose we will had to buy 2 photos from the staffs there . carmen n me won heng...if not we will need to take make losses LOL
but we end up still bought the photos n gt the drinks...lol...my eyes r weird on the picture n zhi hui de shirt from purple become blue in the photo LOL...den went k pool...dammit seh...i lose Jason Tan Jie Shen once again n pure shit is tht i lose him with the last f-ing ball...!so angry canns! argh!
den i come home played texas holdem lose everything si...400k all gone...knnbccb!


i really missed u everywhr n then.my phone wallpaper i changed no longer my face there le...but urs...but my phone would now be strictly own use only.i really see yr photo i will smile.idk why...fcuk it.i miss ya X 100 but wht can i do?purely nothing because u seems like u had found yr happiness already.i would only be able to be a listener now at the very most haiish

Thursday, June 11, 2009
@6/11/2009

here to blog again
today a fun day without studies?
i went to skul le den back home played poker ith cousin den rot rot rot
den cousin wan swim den go his hse swim played volleyball in water lol...damn funny n tired though
den back to his home bathe n dinner den durian wahahas
tml going k box bahs if dun go jason will kill me or say i pang seh him / last few chance to enjoy myself before my engine start to run...i promise my mother to start my engine also so sorry mama...i gonna start le...=) but i believe studies n something and make my life meaningful also la...that is .................. ah hahahs



today i never really text u...but i m always missing u no doubts i love u ... my feelings are 100% genuine true for ya...just that no chance le...i seen yr blog...reallly chio bu n cute in picture...but thats not the reason for me to fall in love with ya though...haiish....

Wednesday, June 10, 2009
@6/10/2009

today i rotted whole day
went yun xian gong pray pray
den go book genting trip which is sian i just want to go there to be alone
enjoying the cool breeze and letting all my thoughts flow everywhr / letting my tears flow?
i would definitely MISS her surely only myself noe who is she only though haiish
den cousin now in my hse wahahas...played texas holdem n many gambling things to ENTERTAIN him( cute cousin )
anyway resting le i havent do my english homework though

??I MISS HER??





i did on purpose not to text you the whole day except the morning n i see yr blog u gt a flu den i cannot tahan myself den text u straight away . i hope ur flu could recover by tml then..haiish...i should say my heart crack n my soul is lost...once again i lost my way haiish...i wan u but it is impossible i read 1 person blog n it seems like someone wif beta qualities still like ya?idk...i want to die le...everything is not going wif my way...but i can really say i love ya n my heart would nv be shaken haiish

Monday, June 08, 2009
@6/08/2009

i did nothing today bascially except some studying in school
went home rot and start crapping lol
just now i went to take a look in all the npcc annual camp foto then went mr wong blog to read abt bintan trip
i really cherish the time in bintan at first i felt very uncomfortable as there is no proper sanitation but end up get used to it n enjoy all the games and activites there with my squadmates . the coconut tree climbing , kayaking , flying fox , volleyball when drizzing , mud walk and many .. all r now in my mind flying here n there i would never never forget those , after reading Mr Wong blog once again my eyes turn watery Zzz...i think i really cant let go NPCC and for the CI course i ought 100% convince my mother to allow mi to go... but first ofall my studies..! i promise i would work hard now to earn the chance to CI course which i want! NPCC wait for me!!!



i dunno.it seems like u r ignoring me again.maybe i m wrong but ... the facts r all there.we cant change it anyway so i had to face it.truly that after the growth camp i had fallen deep love to u?yr smiles and everything really make me feel happy all the times and the messages u send last time let me laugh tons as well.a pretty girl with great smiles,smart and very graceful is every guys desire but i dun have the chance haiish...i shall be waiting then.haiish =(

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Saturday, June 06, 2009
@6/06/2009

back from annual camp t_t my last camp considered the most memorable one bahs?
i was the group leader for group 2.which had been post in the previous post den i went to take them for quite a no of activities like amazing race3 water activites etc etc.but quite angry with the team because of the uncooperative attitude and there is once someone dashing across the road without allowing me to guide i really cant imagine how am i going to answer to the parents if she touchwood kana accident.I wanted to pump them but public so cant but i reprimanded them and told melvin so melvin settled with the whole team as well as one for all,all for one.NPCC motto.but nvm water activites brought everyone to the highest point.den campfire i finally see pey koon jie jie le!.long time nv see her le.den the stupid jian bin say wht couple couple retarded idiot . and he said the standard dropping le for the camp n wun come back next year stupid him!.i definitely gonna to ask him come back next year!..
den today POP le..i totally brokedown i cant control my feelings when i m passing out.my tears flow like water everywhr liddat . i finally realise why the sec4s for previous batch cried . i can say that NPCC wuld never be forgotten and my precious sec2s i simply love u pple tons even though u brought me to many sad moments b4 but those were definitely be forgotten. i would remember the happy moments!.remember the drills in camp i hope that u all really enjoyed it well.i purposely did that simply because after i step down other CLs would be taking over and i dunno who yr squad ICs are but i believe they would be very serious in everything i can let go at times but also will be serious at a certain times.I would apoplogise as well for those moments whr i make yr life difficult.i really feel that i need ti train to control my emotions because even when i m talking to the secondary2s with less than 3sentences my tears starts to come out.If time permits i would want to re-serve NPCC again.Thanks all the cadet inspectors for everything as well i would remember u for life!example jason i would use u at the role model in my future life , zhi hui, boon hong , dun hui , melvin , ain , meng siang , meng lie and HO kaiye and most impt all the TO and everything!Cadet Leader 08-09 Chin Yang had stepped down!...





I would never give up on you!tats wht i promise u!i want you.u r crucial in my life now!..girl i will be waiting!

Wednesday, June 03, 2009
@6/03/2009

nothing much to post just come dun want my blog to be dead
ytd too lazy to blog so nv blog...wahahas...
went to pool with my brother own him!..9-3 wahahas played form 5-6.30
den makan because my aunt birthday kaos the meal is those average average de no good stuffs except some but was so bloodly expensive to me hahas...
tml going my last last last NPCC annual camp le..
i hope would be the most memorable one
haiish...i hope my tears dun disappoint me dun come out at that time please!may god bless me!
group 2 jia you!...group leader for group 2 ... hope can lead them to get the best group achievement!
jia you !!!... now going 9 le i NOW den want to start pack my bag wahahas
sian tml gt lessons den halfway cut into my camp timing but i will sneak out to see see look look de
cadets look out for me!wahahs


i dunno.i noe wht i had done might be fertile n now u r starting to lothe me but i have no regrets!
i can simply say even my doing might be useless in time to come but i remain postitive!
i would not even think of giving out simply because i had gone too serious i canot pull back anymore i supposed!
haiish...my life is fucked!...useless chin yang ! idiot crazy idiot! confirm idiot!..haiish

Tuesday, June 02, 2009
@6/02/2009

lets not talk abt the chinese o lvl...
today didnt knoe there was a npcc meeting till i reach lavendar with my mama
makan le go loyang temple pray pray le
go home computer rot rot rot
den now going slp le wahahas



i really need you le!.i love you badly!how??

Sunday, May 31, 2009
@5/31/2009

hi..ytd went to study abit of bao zhang bao dao...i hoep tml i would write that n have sufficent time for it...because my normal compo always fail so since always fail i rather try a different one to see my luck...den night time went chomp chomp with my parents n my uncle n cousin...i like 2374348284720 years never go there le..the food quite okay la...just that is place we sat is HOT...den after that went home parents frenz come play mahjong..so go look look awhile hahas...den i lost all my money in texas holdem haiish...i lost 700k in like 5games fcuk sian..now left with 150 chips?haiish...next time den play le...too demolished hahas...n my leg still swollen sian..can walk normlly but cant run .. but the pain was to be compared with my heart is nothing okay...hee so i always liddat compare my heart n leg so not pain hahas





i dunno...i really hope to be given a chance i really fall feep into u le...i dun want to be like ..... liddat ask le den no friends n curse n swear here n dere...if rather liddat idk wht i will do as well..haiish!...ineeduiloveu .. no doubts... but it seems pretty impossible

Friday, May 29, 2009
@5/29/2009

today last day of school was total crap la..early in the morning councillor board jiu so tense up Zzz...because of 2 pple dun talk abt it den Mr wong come talk talk to us...den took up 45mins of our mt class ... den class contact nothing much blah blah blah waste time den mrs menon talk rubbish to me?because those dont really concerns me except the o lvl thing...i really need buck up le...i can see my socks when i m wearing shoe...so need pull up my socks n buck up!... before npcc i went to play volleyball with min you ... lol den after that go di siao shawn side de volleyball den fuck up my leg injuried because i tried to save a ball den didnt see well den knock into uncle den my leg blue black..internal bleeding till now still cant walk well...cant run much
NPCC
last normal training for us but the attendance was totall bull shyt can...so little people come spoil my mood den i keep screaming at those people as their actions are really from slow to tortoise?idk...i really tired le i really hope that they can change for the better...after so long for their squad IC stepping down le i realise i didnt do much to them to change except a couple of them..can see improvement others really CMI...in the camp i would really give everything in le...after that den i see how mahs...i want to come back as CI but see my o lvl results first ... now my results sucks like hell..Mr Ang tempted me make me heart itchy but studies come first bahs...haiish...those secondary 2 people played captians ball,n frisbee i only participated mch on frisbee because of my leg...mel mel teach them how to play because they dun really noe much =) nothing much on that though just that they r quick learners for games but why not quicklearners for drills n others?!...i can say my heart n soul had been in alot but i feel useless cant doing help for them...i want them to change n even me not serving the unit next year i come back i say see them as 1 bonded squad not like now scattered sand still...haiish idk n dun want talk abt it le...




i dunno wht can i do now...u see me u feel weird wht can i do to prevent this from happening?i really start to feel the distant but i probably cant live without you now?everyday i really hope to see u first n see you most...even my leg injuried i think the pain is not as pain as my heart...now is like a puzzle who will fixed it back for me i really hope is u but idk now...haiish i promise n feel that i would continue to fight for the honours!...i wun give up!...

Tuesday, May 26, 2009
@5/26/2009

dun ask about my results it sucks terribly ! :(:(:( i can say that my efforts were not 100% in so i would really need the 100% soon .. June1 i need to conquer it already ! At least a A2 please :( may god bless me :)...my mye almost failed so i need to buck up much much more please let me get aA2 n poof i go for chinese..anyway too lazy to post le cya pple soon


Happy Birthday Carine
16years old le hope you enjoy your birthday..







it really needs the 0.01% to find a true love like you , but i need the another 0.01% chance from you to let me go nearer n closer to you :) i m true for you but it seems pretty impossible for me to do anything now haiish

Sunday, May 24, 2009
@5/24/2009

i went temple today
gt some fu shui by godness because of my complexion n wht i m heaty
i m a buddhist so i had to follow n believe . asking me to believe 100% is impossible but i believe to a huge extend:)
den brought my cousin to tampiness safra for bowling .. cork up today fcuk shyt all only 85++ but below 105
sian den pool .. wasted money .. within 20mins 3games ... win 2 lose to my brother by shooting in the 8ball le white ball went le lol...stupid me didnt control the ball well .. den makan at a teo chew resturant Zzz...den father give black face say wht nv say want go whr eat den bring u all le jiu complain n blah blah ... lucky cousin there is not will have MASS DEBRIEF there
cut my hair le...slopply slopply to show mr mike...





i finally received your text...i should be happy but i wasnt fully .. but is fine...slowly bahs i hope =) ... i really wnt to prove/show u that i really indeed like u n want a chance from u ... haiish

Saturday, May 23, 2009
@5/23/2009

wa today went sentosa with jason , zhi hui , lixing , melvin , meng lie , carmen , felicia and hong lueng .. woke up at 7.45am lol right?den jason jiu text me wat za qi de nao er you chong chi ... lol ... den he called me i ignore purposely hahas .. den bathe bathe le he call den i told him i deberately ignore his call :) den poof i go to meet carmen .. den realise felicia n her was doing the food for the mini picnic that jason asked for den they r late for 1hour so do me n hl lol...den we go sentosa le play volleyball .. super super long nv touch le ... heng heng still not so pai seh because i not the noobbie one LOL...zhi hui brought his cousin with is a volleyball VCap down as well to play .. quite fun playing with him we den till noon we started eating , i have no appetite at all den played volleyball with li xing lol lol lol den when the ball fly off some macho guys behind as throw back the ball den she jiu say wa see those gentleman .. i was just standing there doing nothing the ball fly back le... den the sun too hot i thirsty jiu go back drink water den told jason i want abit of beehoon n the seaweed chicken n nugget lol den stupid jason give me one big plate of beehoon with i ate 1mouth jiu dump away le...many food wasted there hahas...den carmen n felicia went to buy frisbee back lol awhile time the frisbee cant be seen le ... the condition is like wahahas...i tried stunts okay hahas i throwed the frisbee on the floor den it flew up very very nice =) after bathe we took photographs .. me mel n jason wore shades to tke photo .. den we went to makan for dinner wanted to makan at yuki yaki but full house need wait for 1.5hour den we went cafe cartel 45mins n seoul garden 45mins due to the majority we went on with cafe cartel the food quite nice but also ex lol .. 9 pple eat 176bucks lol...each almost 20bucks ... den because i having a bad headache n need to go home so went ahead with my squadmates abondaning those CIs ... wahahas they going barage ? ok shall end here bahs n i want those photos jason tan jie shen!!!!....




i dunno wht happened to us now even texting u u dun reply ... i have no comments le... i shall carry on waiting bahs...lost in the dark...everywhen n then i take my phone out when i see messages i hope u r the one sending me but always i didnt get it...i can say tht not much smiles were shown nowadays ... haiish ... i wun be happy anymore chin yang is always waiting then ... fuck up life

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Friday, May 22, 2009
@5/22/2009

i rot the whole day today with my laptop...
tml going sentosa with jason tan jie shen n cliques hope it will be fun bahs...
haiish...jason 18years old le i 16nia sian...cannot learn driving yet lol
shall end here...too lazy type le...n really sick of everything...
i hate everything now...i hate u!..i hate myself! i hate everyone here and everyone there..
i hate !!!!!!!!
my hatred could be express through my expression thats one i dun want!
i want to change ! i would only smile when happy n dun show a hating people expression when i m doing so
fcuk shyt and myself...haiish...



i m serious about u..not even a single dime unserious...whtever i said to u is 100% true...if u doubt my words wht u need to get it right?i noe trust is build up over long time but overnight everything might be gone..i noe..but u didnt let me try out .. i can promise i wun be saying sorry for nothing and dun put on a fake smile , i would not be doing those things ytd FM 100.3 said thats wht i can promise...but .. it seems so impossible now...haiish...i m tired

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Sunday, May 17, 2009
@5/17/2009

~~i m rotting~~
to lazy to study for test...
gonna to read the formulaes soon :)


i m wondering nowaday...is there chance? is there miracle?can i create miracles..i really wonder!...i want u!..but it seems pretty impossible nowadays....fcuk life of mine...haiish

@5/17/2009

didi sick today so rot at home read abit of physics but dun understand most of them tml den go through again ... so whtever...i played texas holdem again...today luck was better but i was greedy at the end always ended up keeping 10over thousand only...i won abt 300k n was left wih 30k..imagine...Zz...nevermind i played that to past time as well..:(
-hope didi recover fast fast ... lets hope :)

my heart was really terribly painful...idk why...i was really thinking that u would text me..but end up i didnt receive any text by you at all but others...i was with my phone all the time but whenever i see one message received i pin hopes that i would see yr name on the titte but it was not ... idk wht i should do to .... haiish...my heart sinked once again for today...haiish...my life was fcuked!

Saturday, May 16, 2009
@5/16/2009

i killed myself for emaths paper 1..hopefully i would not just pass by a borderline one..:) is tough to me...as i had not revised enough i m truthful okay.:)...n SS i m doomed!..hope Miss Sasi wun kill me as i disturbed her witht the 3 boys on last friday saying wht we need hints n etc den can study..lol..i didnt really bother studying that as i feel since i m dead for geography not much of a point studying SS as well :) i noe thats a very very bad habit but no choice wht done is done..i must learn from mistakes..lol...okok...i m still online at 2.35am...imagine hahas...i had a great rest in the afternoon after my aircon was serviced...but it doesnt seems cold at all!...rawk!...anyway i m going fcebook texas holdem..i played my didi account n earn him 45k just now but lost 35k..lol...gonna try to invest again now buaii

i dunno wht i should do now i hate myself in many things as well now i lost courage in saying onlly in blog i dare to fuck up right...i believe u dont trust me much still but wht i can say / promise is i know that love might not be everlasting if we are together but i promise if we could be tgt the moments would definitely be great/happy n the happiness would definitely be much much more!idk i just dun feel that there is miracle for me though...haiish

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Thursday, May 14, 2009
@5/14/2009

i screwed myself up today in everything once again ! fcuk it can!argh!i knew my geography paper is a goner!ha den followed by poa i seriously dunno m i on the right track when mr wong walk past me staring at my paper with a weird look den i went home makan sleep den tuition ... Now just started studying ss i seriously hope i wun be scoring single digit for that .. I aim to soar ! My e maths paper 1 target by myself 40/60..my tutor target for me 48/60 all crazy expectations n targets just hope i can do it den lets pray :)
and for you ... idk wat to say i seen / read your blog n everything wat i can simply say is i hope for a miracle to come for me to do things well ? I want ... I will not give up no you!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009
@5/13/2009

after years i m always healthy [overweight] i m this time sick..n is very sick!physical n emotional sick!i hope this pain would NEVER go off..i would die soon liddat...idk why..dun ask me why i dun want the pain to go off .. I have no answer as well..my throat from bad to worst but i insist not to see a doctor because i want the pain to be there the longer the better!definitely everyone think is insane but to me is not!i m crazy enough to do almost everything / anythin that is crazy now...haiish..esp emotional ones!haiish...no way i would give up but i cant move further as i think i almost reach the peak the peak where i need to stop or i would fall n die fast!i dun want to post lerrhs sorry the pain will last for life i supposed

Sunday, May 10, 2009
@5/10/2009

today was a happy day in the morning for the activites but not for myself though...went to popular buy things for making rose n den ntuc to buy chocolates den we went subway makan den started to do the roses...for the few mins we failed...den anyhow do anyhow do den we so paiseh...den we decided to go mac to do...den do do do den went home do...wahahas...crazy fellows...( wen n yan sorry i noe u will kill me...but indeed quite crazy ) den home do lerrhs we cant finish it on time so we went grandma hse to complete...we finish lerrhs...den put one side...den i went to see parents mahjong...hee...i m crazy for gambling now...Zzz...den cut cake de shi jiu we started giving those presents we made...den we gave not according to the biggest to smallest mother den we gave the maids first...den not enuf...bloody hell my uncle jiu come kpkb say why the maid take first den his " second wife" dun have?den unfortuately my mother pass hers to that willy wonka...na bei the willy wonka not even a mother why she deserved just because my uncle wife?nabei den wht did he give to the " second wife " i bet also nothing lor...at msot a kiss??or wht LC arhs...kuku sia...we pay money to buy all this things n spend the whole afternoon doing those things not even a thanks word said n was shoot ... den we still kana lesture?/debreif by parents say wht must make extra n shld give from the elder one first ... we made extra one okay!...dunno which kuku go take make us no enough to give...willy wonkas gift was counted inside as well...jsut dunno why gone...this lecture was actually not nessessary ... angry furious!...argh!!!



i dunno wht i can do to appease you...maybe we can be best friends first for now till we have closer relationships as best friends den we say?idk...i m a dumb block now...haiish...i m sorry

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@5/10/2009

ytd went raffles town club to eat...yummy indeed i didnt get the chance to see the buffet but the alaked food taste preety nice as well i order lobster fried rice n cream of mushroom which cost 20bucks in total...hee...den went to the arcade to play their table soccer...family game...hee gonna stop here...anyway hoping all mothers a happy mothers day and always having good health n always pretty : )

i m lost in the tunnel now...half way through...should i turn back or continue walking till i get through it?the pain is there...if i continue n i failed to finish to reach the destination the pain would be worst...so how?wht can i do?i really want to be with you but it seems like it is impossible right now...i dunno how?i just now my blood is bleeding n the pain is not able to be said within this few words...best friends is not wht i want from u...so how?haiish...i m really lost...haiish...nothing could be done to help me now!haiish...this outcome might be the best if we cant be tgt..but i havent even tried n was like sentenced to death...i m not gonna give up in this case...haiish...

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Sunday, May 03, 2009
@5/03/2009

i have no mood to study even though mye is like 5days 120hours from now....haiish!...save me la pple!...the mood n feelings wasnt dere!!!....fcuk sia!...how can i get everything into my mind within like wht 120hours no way!...minusing slp time like left 30hours self-studying...not enuf!!!...nabei sia...why i cant be like those top students in school...can even do revision in class!?..why!?i has been asking this to myself...idk why though fcuk shyt...zzz....sianz...i dun wan to post lerrhs i supposed...for today la....

i dun no wht my desicion was a well made one or not...but since i said it from my text n my heart i had to obey..no more thinking of all this?i still have the feelings sia...no matter wht i m sure i cant forget it within like 1hour or 100 hours...let music heal the soul?haiish!...i could only say all depends on fate..if god give me the chance to meet her by accident i would say i would not give up even though wht i said...i would extract everything!!...because i m those persistent type...not those .................... haiish...wht shld i do???why this happened to me...not others?fuck sia!

Saturday, May 02, 2009
@5/02/2009

In the morning i woke up at 7am...rot awhile den online...den go prayers at guang ming shan den sad to say my cousin was stung by a bee...stupid bee in temple sting pple...Zzz....den my cousin went to see the doctor after that...den i went to bathe buddha...den pray pray pray den go makan at teck ghee market...den went home to change lerrhs den meet the birthday boy!...Yiu Hong Leung!!!...finally 16lerrhs...i bought him to choose a cake..forget it is not halal really forget [sorry asri n saiful] den no choice they cant eat.den went to pool...shuang sia never this happened to me for pooll...i won everyone today!...damn happy...unbeatable record was done today!...2May...cant imagine...jason!...i won him by 1 ball even though is that 1 ball but is enuf to earn the victory..den went to see mp3 secretly with jason but hor the price too expensive...3 pple sharing me.dh,jason only say 129 de,99 de...wanted to buy but count lerrhs really cant afford...den we went world of sports bought a jacket...actual price 80plus but after some discount...so we decided to buy it....den we went to suki sakura eat...makan makan makan with his parents n brother...den 8plus we cut the cake...we bought the relightable candles for him...so he blow so hard also cannot finish blowing till really the candles reaches it limit...den some pple take photo some photos were really...[bhb de pple]...idk wht i typing though...hahas...den went tke neoprint forced by the girls...Zzz....den ok went home...


i m really lost!...i dunno wht i can do to earn the trust n everything to get u.u seems like a impt role in my life now...wht can i say when u say u r sad...not in the mood?just letting u rest n not to interfere into yr problems thats how useless i m now...i m tired n lost..i really dun want to carry on this...i m really burnt out...

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Thursday, April 30, 2009
@4/30/2009

after a long week finally can take a break...had been tuition-ing,revision-ing abit here and there...but wasnt ready for MYE yet though...so how?whts next?i realli cant get a answer...:(...dun ask me why..i cant answer ... anyway CCA n everything had stand down for the time being till my npcc camp!...final big thing b4 i pass out...den focus on studies...gt chance n my results permit den i would come back to service for the school?provided teacher is willing to hmmm...hahas...anyway many many things had happened...Dedication 2 will stay united ... no one will be left alone!...we come tgt we pass out tgt!...dedication2!all the way!...

you asked me why i dun want to tell u the reason n many things...i dun want to tell u is simply because once i tell u how i feel abt u maybe we couldnt be friends anymore...i believe i dont want it to happen to me again...i m not so brave to handle this problem once more...once bitten twice shy sorry...my bad :( i would only simply say sorry to u _ _ _ _ _.... not wanting to lose u thats the only method...

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Friday, April 24, 2009
@4/24/2009

I think this year speech day was the best i ever had in my whole 4 years in cbss!...we started out with full strength den many fall out ended hong leung not able to be the goh IC den jason took over hong lueng took the goh squad den the parade went well for dry run but for the actual one i think is kinda cork up partly the timing but also abit on our fault due to we ask asri to slow down but we didnt inform the band to slow down...but nvm it went ok after than...finish the parade we went to take our award...wa many say we only take a cert n voucher i imdiately sian to the max ... i was hopping it was a pluck lucky was really a pluck but was very very fergile...we went up to the gallery sit sit awhile den went down to the LP because Mr Ang n Mr Wong treated us pizza ... we enjoyed the food n the time tgt...esp like we were all so high screaming n shouting n phototaking...den out of a sudden a feeling came... i went into emo state for awhile as thinking back my last training lerrhs...den like we pre-celebrating for out passing out parade...so ... after that went to mac sit sit awhile den jason n dun hui make us laugh like hell...like death note liddat hahas...really laugh until my food cant finish...too crazy le...den took bus with mei n some of her friends...den listen listen wht they say...den crazy things happened again lol...but nvm...anyway lazy to post le...i go blog hopping n msn that jason tan jie shen lerrhs!...
NPCC is my life!...I love it to the max..!...Nothing Would Make Me Lose Interest For It!I love you NPCC!!

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Wednesday, April 22, 2009
@4/22/2009

Chin Yang is dead!never be able to feel n sense anything already! nEVER! I m really fucking tired of my life at times!why do i exist?i 2nd time in my life have this type of feeling for limited reasons!today was really a fuck day!nothing went smoothly ! I remembered that there is once in my life liddat!but my seniors were around..mika n denise .. They really consoled me n help me through but this time..who ish gonna help me through this shyt?no one ! I m depending on myself now!nothing will be right!i m always wrong!i had always been positive in my heart but now no more!a dead person!the pain n hurt in my heart would never go..[note i dun have a relation]i really dun want to continue all this shyt wat how i could have myself? I m really tired n sick of all this!many things occured today which i m not going into details!anyway i m not posting anymore

Sunday, April 19, 2009
@4/19/2009

today was a crazy day for me...: (...woke up for no reason at 6am gosh!...wtf sia...ytd night 12am den slp den ... anyway nvm also haahs..den stoning till 1pm went to makan at the market near my grandma house...makan le went up..gosh once we reach we smell something burning outside my grandma house den my dad ask the maid to take a pail of water he tot was something burning on the cover den realise it wasnt...it was the bottom floor gabbage chuke on fire...den my grandma went out to see awhile i was like asking them to come in eps my grandma...if my grandma was a cadet i would have scolded her...lol...she was already so old she shouldnt be smelling all this...is very harmfull...den i went down to see the fire...was very big in the chuck...den the scdf came n pull out the fire quite fast but the smell still remains there...[difussion] lol den after awhile i went off to visit another grandma...my mummy side de .. went awhile jiu went to safra pool awhile...hahas...den makan at a thai place...the food is soso only...ahahs...but damn expensive...i owe someone a treat to a thai resturant...hahahs...shall see when i treat that person..: )

nothing is impossible with a will ... i will win the war!!!

Saturday, April 18, 2009
@4/18/2009

i m back from these 3 days school camp...quite enjoyable though except for some incident would spoilt the whole thing...not really worth actually but the camp has ended..first day course course course...but quite impt n the time was really well spent there...i would / will start my timetable soon!...i believe it is gonna to work!n fine dinning was next .. i ended up wearing school uniform even though i bought formal wear...as i see no point wearing it hahas...next activity,NIGHT WALK...was looking forward to it actually but ended up with disappointments...they said till it was so scary scary etc but it was like no kick at all...i went in with 3 gurls n chuan yao . they were all quite brave not a single soul screamed hahas...okay thats all for th first day nothing much .. second day at sentosa...walk walk walk with that blazing hot sun...that really kills sia...forced to be the group leader den so be it...i wanted the whole group to be tgt so used some fierce attitude but ended up with conflicts..was really irrated actually but eventually i gave up...how i said to convince them dont seems to work at all so i gave up on them n started adventuring hahas...i seen them all very worn out already...treated 2 bottles of 100plus to them to share even though it not enuf but was able to perk them up a little bit...: ]... after that we went back school prepare for campfire..lol...actually i was involved but i put karthig to take over me..because i have the wht class cheer which was actually so...Zzz...hahas...but the camfire was super duper funny...shawn was mking so much noise to build up the atmosphere even some quite girls i seen was laughing like grace , melissa etc laughing...shawn ended up with some problem with the unreasonable instructor...tha instructor everything also care...damn inrrated!....den done lala...went to slp...song bo..den charge my phone also hahas...my second time chargeing phone in school first time is councillor camp...third day was really crap no activities except the small cheers compeition n area cleaning..lol...den video montiage... epic at work n school de... epic did one den other one jason did it...nice nia...funny...after that went makan with jason men n feli den went back sms sms sms...i think this camp was really a fruitful one...know afew nice friends n some EX NPCC cadets...like
melvin - wa he seems so proud when he told me i last time npcc one now quit le join volleyball
grace - a super friendly n nice gurl..but very quiet...will laugh only when some rally happening things happened : )
melissa-a good asst leader...can lead well n can work well with people...: )
thats all

carine- sorry to hear yr grandma ... hope u would cheer up soon : ) take care
wen n yan - jia you for yr competition : 0...i would root for u!...hahahs....

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Sunday, March 29, 2009
@3/29/2009

i wasted a day lol
Tomorrow will be a better day ... : )
But a long day lol...from 7.50am to 8.30pm lessons ... Haha...going to sleep already..nights everyone

@3/29/2009

yo!..i m trying to keep my blog alive...well well today was a boring sat..morning woke up at 10plus den cooked maggie mee ... taste abit .. the taste was great den suddenly my dad called n say go xin fu yin cha eat i was like wtf..!..first time the maggie mee just nice den liddat wht a luck...den keep those mee..den makan huo i ought to study!...i complete my additional maths tuition n school work...first time i so guai try n try till really cant solve den give up...hahas...complete 90% of it...hahas...den stone stone stone till 6plus ... because my daddy need to accompany his malaysia friend so we didnt dine out with our cousin..t_t...sad...( wen rui n yan rui touched ?) lols...but we dialed 62353535 pizzahut delivery hahas...my mummy use all the old notes ... 13 pieces of 1buck notes LOL...n 5 2buck notes...when the person deliever over the person was like wow kid u willing to give up those collection notes arhs...i just laugh n say "ya" because my mum dun wana keep so many she say a couple if them would be enough ... yum yum...quite nice...today i think i wasted my weekend doing quite many useless things lol

every second of my heart is thinking of u..or should i say every beat the heart beats i m thinking of u ?

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Friday, March 27, 2009
@3/27/2009

hello everyone i know it had been ages since my last post...i m always online but just too lazy to post...ai ya now i can say is i m tired of computers at some some times n Mr Goh told me to give up computer till november i somehow promised him by trying but my mum give me some leeway sying every friday would pass me to use den sat studying day den sunday outing day as sunday always go visit my grand parents at kallang n tiong bahru...hee..Anyway i was thinking alot these few days how could i help myself in my results but i cant give myself a suitable answer and always want to avoid the topic...It is always easiler saying than actioning out...i had tried to study, had spoken to a couple of teachers n realise problems in myself though i want to try hard but i must admit my concentration lvl was very weak easily distracted . Even lessons i sometimes daydream which is very very bad...: ) bad example...hahahs...I couldnt find the confidence i had long ago everything is lost...i want the old me for confidence!...i lost everything le...For NPCC...the passion i have in it will never die just that will i be able to commit back for the unit or my future career would all depends on fate... I had always been aiming for something since sec2 from the unit but now i realise i would never get it due to..... hahas...i wouldnt say to wht...i would easily be defeated though...;p...ok...i m lazy to post le...see whn i free den i post again bahs : p

the feeling i have for you would always be intact..i would wait n wait as i think that no matter wht u r always far above me...i would only do any actions once i regain my confidence n the power ... the feeling is true for u... no doubt...

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Sunday, February 15, 2009
@2/15/2009

hello people!...i know it had been ages since i post n i was really too lazy...
many causes...sick,lazy,stress n chinese new year...so post some things up to appease some pple lols...Chinese New YEar wasnt a good one for me...lost 100 bucks... gosh!...hahas...my allowance t_t...lucky my dad subsise some for me..if not i would be eating bread everyday..lols...n my birthday...yippie..not bad...went suki sakura to makan...didnt realli eat much but was fun..lols...den gt wat hmm...oh cross country...b4 that went to pool n play...den went down to nyp...so hot...weating like no body business hahas...lol...den valentines day went bowling,makan as is my cousin birthday..hahas..lols...good food seh...prawns,sharkfin,n yum yum hahas...nice food...i think i m going to bowl more...my skills rust le...though i had been bowling but not as much...since i got the NeBo member card go n bowl 4 games free n 2.50 per game nia...song hahas...my set games i played there 3 games like wht 113,112,102...sianz...hahasi want to break my top record 152~!...arhs...hhas..okay sianz le,..lazy post everyone cya!

Friday, January 02, 2009
@1/02/2009

Happy New Year People...hasnt been updating again i know hee...:)i hasnt been in the correct mood to update hahas...ok many things past last year 2008..i remembered how all people treated me...but new year i would forgive and forget...last year 2008..some great event that impacted me alot,CCU,Speech Day,Bintan Trip,etc etc...i got alot to type if i want...but haiish..CCU really super unpleasant...that one i never never forget wht the f is tht...one night all friendship that had been build up over the 3years all GONE...i was like a stranger or only person standing n walking in a desert with no direction at all...lucky settled all patch back as friends...but still have once not long b4 almost again i got killed?lol....i was named in a very disgusted name...i was like wht the fcuk is it...nabeii my badwords r all flowing in my mind wanted to confront but settled:) i dun wna name not one 1 but a couple of pple..ai ya everything past le..i put them behind as MeMoRiEs...New Year le...Fresh Start!...New Year..Aim!...beyond bridging gaps...lols...I want to concentrate in my O lvls...,bless everyone around me..., no troubles...everything move smoothly...enjoying the year though is a hard year hahs..ok tired slp now cya!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008
@12/23/2008

i m owing some one 2 more stories..i know n would post soon..regarding chalet and malacca trip.lol..sianz...today went raffles town club to makan buffet today...my right eye lid keep jumping i knew somehting would happen n fcuk it..i went to queue up for some prawns i accidently kicked one lady leg den wtf she said dun cut queue again la...damn fcuk up la...i didnt even cut she accusing me...n somemore that bitch bf or hushand just now cut my queue i nv say anything..fcuk up lahs..den the aunty beside me also shocked...she knew i m innocent she was like wtf i feel...i was totally moodless...den i almost scolded fcuked the lady infront of my mum...my mum knew wht happened she just said calm down i help u get wht u want...i was like ? fcuked la...scolded for nothing n the buffet is from bad to worst...the food last time tons now so little...i really super dulan..wht the f is that sehx...hell breaking loose? after that went bowling...i was like anyhow playing...still okay the points 115,110,85 the 3rd round my finger nails cracked den i played all funny styles that my mum said u wasting money?hahas...i anyhow play for the first 5 balls i get 20 odd total for the 5 frame den after that i pulled back hahas...LOL...my 18set of bowling since holidays my highest bowling score 152 lowest 85 since the holiday LOL..the overall average should have 110 each game...hahas...

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Friday, December 19, 2008
@12/19/2008

it seems like years since i post...sorry...i m online but just dun feel like posting *opps* hahas..i would start with my genting trip...3d2n boring trip...hahas..lols..i woke up at 4am get ready went there wait wait wait till 6 board the bus...this trip my uncle went with us...he just wanted t0 relax himself n he was free den follow up..n fcuk we sat on a luxury bus gt tv den my uncle de spoilt hahas...den he slept all the way up to yong peng..funny part here..my uncle went to buy biscuit n he gt the receipt n need to exchange for biscuit but he went off without it..LOL..he still gong gong dunno anything was amissed..den 3solid hours up to genting...once reach waited for 1hour because of the checking in...super duper long queue n the people there gong gong de..i went there at june one person wants a connection room to take care of his daddy the person say sure...16 storey and 17storey..i n my mum gong diao de..ahahs...lucky we request connection in singapore liaos...bags n barangbarangs down n we headed to KFC for out first meal..there de chicken is nicer than singapore n not so oily...4pm we had our lunch parents went into casino with my uncle after that hahas...i went pooling...there cheap also but the table also super cheap...the ball cant be controled LOL...den went to makan liaos for dinner i n my brother played pool super long...all sianz dao le...hahas...by the time we finsih out meal 9plus 10...walk around n go back hotel do all necessary things n Zzz...parents casino-ing to 4am...hahas...went next day went to the temple...hahas..pray liaos continue with bowling,pooling,n my uncle n dad went massange,my uncle love karaoke so went to k with my mum...10rm for 5songs...they enjoyed lols...den nothing much den went back hotel...parents go casino...outdoor i dun wana to play so sua..nv even go in hahas...coz i feel whts the point everytime play the same game maybe no pple come den i go play den faster can go in..hahas...genting trip didnt buy anything back hahas

Bintan Trip
i love Bintan Trip...it was a fun trip just that night time had to stay up till 12plus 1 to crack brains for ideas...we played super many games la...like...flying fox(flying into the sea) , kayaking with super strong waves till many kayak capsized,boom netting...jumping into super deep water just that there is a net n we are wearing life vest..(what if there is a hole in the net?)hahas,climbing up tree for coconut(if u take it down is urs if not no coconut for u lols),Mudwalk(catch the squid,hairy crab,shells,crab etc,the water is super clear if we dun kick the water.This is fun just that we dun play a fool)Orpanage(play with those kiddos and taught them how to make stars and gun)
These are the main activities we went to the orpanage first with 2mil rupia to buy things for them..After we bought it we went lunch and the food there were average just that the chicken there were like?stones..hahas..n the vege..kaos super haim pple cry after eating it lol..then we learned n played with the orpans...hahas...went to loola.the resort we were staying...hahas...okay la...we stayed at the sea dorm.10boys sleeping in one sea dorm the gurls with our officer Miss Lim slept in another n Meng Siang Jason and Mr Wong slept in another...their dorms were super good lahs...toilet,mostiko coil fan,etc..ours is open area but cant compare,,,,hahs,,,we had many activites that few days and on the second night with the venus n jupitar n moon forms a smiley face something bad occured..klz nicholas they all playing around The Officer And CI bunk n someone jump..."phong" one sound was created den all run to some sides,the bridge break we was like wth.hahas...lucky after our dinner it was settled..hahas...we did many planning and presentation though n for the last day we knew Ms Lim has her last camp in cbss n her birthday was the next day so we gave her one present and wished her hbd.We went to charlie chiecken to eat n purchased 2 watches for my brother and cousin n headed back to singapore.Reach singapore custom the police scam through n one school student had cigarettes in his bag and is afew was went to the room.lols...singapore law no cigarettes or not mor than 1packet or would be fine.Warning everyone lols...

Lazy to post 2more events maybe tml or lltr den continue

Sunday, October 26, 2008
@10/26/2008

I have been rotting for the few days...lols...today singapore expo...my dad out of the blue say "lets go gain city de exhibition " den we went there quite crowded... shopped round den my dad commited an air con for my house coz he say ours now electicirty consuming...ahhas...den changing a new air con if can ... hahas...den rot rot rot now going rest coz tml going genting nida wake up at 5OMG...hahs...okay lahs bye..cya!

Friday, October 24, 2008
@10/24/2008

argh!...today sianz lahs...hahas...nothing to do woke up at 7!...WTF!..siaos lor...so early...haiish...den msn chat chat till 12plus wen tot simlim to makan den go look for my laptop de mouse...coz i dun like using the thing on the laptop so pek chek hahas...den the bag to store it...den went home rot...hahas...keep on msn chat hahas...den just now chat with JTJS for awhile..hope he cN go Bintan with us bahs...okay lahs i continue my rotting life cya!

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Thursday, October 23, 2008
@10/23/2008

erm school finally ended...but isnt a good thing for mi...will be very sianz...coz i m poor...i go out i will burn my pocket...hahas...today assembly was...OMG...why gt the pride award de...or why i get it?i dun pocess any of those n i get it?illogical wht...lols...report book i see it i was not happi at all either sad coz i improve in class position n lvl one but the problem is results didnt improve so this means others deprove more than mi so ??? lols...went bought my dad birthday present for him...38bucks...lols...den mum nag sy nv wrap mei you cheng yi LOLS...i didnt wrap any gift i give b4 sehs lols...i want badminton...lols...booking soon...once back from my genting trip i would book hahas...longed to play liaos..hahas...I m happy seh my parents actually allowed me to go Bintan with NPCC hahas...looking forward to it...nvm i m lazy to post liaos guys take car bye!

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Wednesday, October 22, 2008
@10/22/2008

heyys!...today we play watever ball is quite fun la..just bhat there r friendly matches so there would surely be conflicts...wtf...why pple just couldnt put down their pride...since they had lost just admitt it..."sheng bai nai bing jia chang chi" whr ue fall ue will eventually stand up from one day...loser...haiish...den went training the secondary 1s for the flag lols..den i really buay song after than...siberi suay song...but nvm...den teach here n there den went to the library to chat with the librarian...hahas...dmn fun...us dialect chat den she keep suaning mi...Zzz...keep comparing my cousin and mi...wth...my cousin guai doesnt mean i guai...she councillor n i councillor doesnt mean anything...hahas...den went to toa payoh central...buy things den go back home..lols

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Tuesday, October 21, 2008
@10/21/2008

todays post exam activities is dragonboat quite fun hahas...we learnt many things and is nice competiting...we won out for 4boats we get first!...so nice...hahas...den we played and were all totally drenched...hahas...den..went school rot rot...lols..den carmen borrowed my year book so went to get it back...b4 that went arcade played daytona..lols...den going back that tym rain so bloodly big had to run back coz i promise my parents by ... time reached home for dinner but ended up...n gt scolded...hahas...lols..den now watching lan qiu huo online...blogging using laptop n using desktop watch show multi tasking hahas

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Monday, October 20, 2008
@10/20/2008

did nothing today actually...sianz....the chinatown trip is so dull so dead...so sianz...rot rot rot!...nothing to post so jolly well just typeso junks up there for the fun only...hahas....nothing post le...cya!...hoping to see light tml lols...no rain pls...i want dragonboat~!~~

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Sunday, October 19, 2008
@10/19/2008

today is a boring day...did nothing actually except cousin coming my huse and i played poker...i m pro in daidee or i shld say i m in luck today coz i didnt lose anygames hahas...i played 10 games and own all...wahahas...smart analysisation lols...and went out for a meal...steamboat wahahas...yummy den went OG to shop shop haiish so sianz always see converse shoe i wanted somemore cheap wanted buy 40bucks nia den no my size...pui..hhaas...okay...sian...going watch mine lan qiu huo!...hahas...nice show...

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Saturday, October 18, 2008
@10/18/2008

yoz...i maybe/might be/most likely is back to blogging?wahahas...today was kinda relax in the MOI test though i was screwed...due to stress and many tings...haiish...is it so easy to act???i realise ue r a great actor whom can hide all feelings and emotions...whenever i see yr expression i was really amazed...ue can do magic???or ue have some pills to eat so ue can be a great actor outside and when ue r alone ue all go insane or wht???i had enuff...really!...haiish...today i really thinks that i m afraid of teaching my fellow squad mates but whenever i m teaching my sec 1 squad i could express it beta...haiish...after everything makan ... at amk....Zzz...i declared banrupcy...as a POA A student i didnt know how to finance my own money...how disgrace i m...haiish...hahas..and next week all the way outside...school events...wow...lols...sianz...hahas...broke = no money to venture and try out anything...haiish....hahas...okay...i think jason had spotted most of us common mistake that is whenever we think of something we say...hahas...my blogging ha the same thing...that craps of pills etc had happene quite long but once i tot of that i m full or anger!hahas,,,ok...lazy type liaos..cya!

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Friday, October 17, 2008
@10/17/2008

whe the F...whats abt life now???i m sick and tired abt mine now...i realli dunno...i realise something...someone near ue maybe is someone who is gonna to backstab ue...i reali hate that few people...KNNBCCB!...wif they really buay song with me i would prefer they all to cum straight with me...not gossiping and backstabbing...and please dun use threatening...i would be scared...i can say i have changed!i would be so esy to let ue all get over my head even ue all r in the wrong...i would not give in if i think is not needed...ue all r the cause of all this...if u r the cause of it...[with i wouldnt disclose name] ue better open yr bloodly eyes...!many incidents happened!...many conflicts happened and solved many things r still remaining intact not gonna to try le...Chin Yang is tired now!...all this things r mking me so blooodly sick of ue .. whenever i see ue and had to act a false front infront of ue it realli irks me as well...i m tired of all this...what i had done to ue guys is wht ue guys had done to me...Thanks For Those sad memories you pple gave and impt MARK YR WORDS...and i meant it...all this things r things that happened from 20sept to today 17/1o
Happy Things were i manage to strive through by passing 4subjects but hated it...i fail my e maths by one bloodly mark!...if not 5passes...!!!....but at least got one new A2 lying on my report book...using that to appease my parents but that wasnt enough and i sgave my words to parents to study hard to aim for 15points for O levels...i wanted nice and good course for my future!...
|The Momories here isnt good!...but is bta than primary schoool...wht ever evil or bad things i do...and almost gana caned....haiish...those pple irks me now...I would really hope time passes faster...i m gonna to go crazy seeing them again...PLEASE mark yr words...what ue all gave me...i would return ue guys eventually...jun zi bao chou shi nian bu wan!..

Friday, September 19, 2008
@9/19/2008

i really had enough of u!not happy come say out la why bother being a weakling?n my personal data had wroten i hate backstabers ediot loh haiish fcuk ass seh spoil my mood of studying asshole!studying is actually the key but wat i m doing is...tuition only nothing else as that idiot come play asshole la!6days or less jiu exams le i didnt do any revision i prepare to be dead but no matter wat please let me go to secondary 4 haiish retaining is a very paiseh thing!haiish i really want back my mood so ass la...ccb!haiish ytd i wasnt studying in school n went to meet jason n dun hui...haha..go buy gift for pple n laugh n joke here n there let me feel much relax them in the tense classroom with alot of pressure all wanting to improve or excell..exams end quick please!

Saturday, August 30, 2008
@8/30/2008

sorry i m too lazy to update since july3...coz too busy n doing alot of things...haha...busy now...EOY comming n havent start revising... haha...die die...today the teachers day celebration was kinda of bored every year almost thy same thing even though this the atmosphere makes me feel wow...the contrast by the teachers who r popular n less popular is great...even though the gt the cert,gift etc..but the claps some were realli stunning n i was amaze but some...haiish...after that actually going home den Jason ask if i m free to meet...go look for Dun Hui,ery long nv see him so asked my mum n she agreed even though she cooked already n was waiting for me for some matters...i went to meet jason,carmen,jolene at the Bus Stop...haha...i m fat broke now after the first meal ... conned... "secret" haha...afterthat went bowling...argh!...ashamed...nevermind dun sae beta...haha...i m loving the bowling without parents n relatives no stress but squadmates etc haha...i wanted POOL!...haha...shall go next tym..haha...ok endhere....reali too lazy to update le...now is 1am le wor...30august...haha...count down to EOY is less than 30days...OMG...holidays starts n ended veri soon d!...bye...

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Thursday, July 03, 2008
@7/03/2008

sianz...juz back from STC camp...it was a fruitful one though...had learnt alot of thing...had learnt more things for survivor n etc...haha...i love it...even htough the cmap i didnt get the group i wanted...but didnt regret...i had gtto know alot of neww friends...juz that diappointment make me feel so...haha...the campfire was great as well...hhaa...campfrie commitee...haha...nice one...even though had alot of conflicts...n everythign i had in the camp was wht...food n drink was normal as well...haha...i miss her though...but cant do anything...haiish...i suddenly realise i m loved in reporting...back to the unit i realli hope to contribute much more than i can haha...even though thepost i get is not a high one...i m there to fight for the contribution CCA award..haha...i think i in love in ........ sianz...haha...nebermind...i m willing to accept the challenge...haha...i m crazy in skul bloggering n learning ACE learning...bye take care...i will missed u everymoment n everything..

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Thursday, June 05, 2008
@6/05/2008

The last post was 2months also...haiish...many things had happened...camps courses for NPCC etc...n now the post had been out...when i heard mine...i was realli low...the post i wanted was goten by my good friend...n i feel smth others that i would nv reveal...n betrayal of friends..i had learnt this as well...i was betrays stabbed...badly...i gt nth to sae...not bothering so mcuh for it...i m realli tired after it...i hate those bastards backstabbers...n many pple who disappointed me...trusting u guys r WRONG...i would not be lenient to my friends whom make me disappointed for give up them...i promise!....my emotion will be express veri deeply on my face...i hate to hide emotion...now i gt one thing in my mind...i wun care of somethings n juz forus of other...i m lazy to post le...haiish...tae care guys i would rot my blog agn...i m deeply disappointed!...wht post i gt is wht my abilites were...so i wun think so much le...bye

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Friday, April 11, 2008
@4/11/2008

i am back for blog..i m realli saying bloodly many times...i m tired of my life...now n forever...wht the fcuk is it man...since this week i havent have a peaceful mind...or should i sae i havent have a peaceful mind since the term starts...everything is going oppisite mi...wht the fcuk it is man!...i really cannot tahan le...might get a great fall...and that fall would never let mi stand up or take alot of time to recover...bloodly big fcuk loh...i canot studi well at hoem and i always try to find time to stay back in school juz to try concentarting to study...but wht i get it cannot tuition...i really fcuking hae this tuition centre now...starting i m really kin to study because it really helps mi pull my resuls up but now...i almost quarel with the counter girl because of a bill and wht she said is bloodly not true...den the in chqage somehow threathened mi...come on la..den starting tuition 1 time nia...now bloogly big FCUK 3 times...because their intake increase...which bloodly big FCUK ask them to earn so much or wants to take in so many people...? they like money sae la...i burn for them.. haiish...dun wanna digress any further le...sick n tired of it...pcb...n today sports fiesta nv join any event but ask to help to the tele match...get catch "char tek" n form TAMIL words den peel orange...den we won the champion..even though win there was no happiness felt in mi...no point in this life someones i feel...n many things really happened...someone realli eek mi now...but i realli dun wanna point n name....haiish...EVERYONE HAS A LIMIT...once they blow their top dun blame or say sorri...is totally CRAP..." zhao zhi ru chi he bi dang chu"...

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Saturday, March 15, 2008
@3/15/2008

back to post...this few WEEKS i had alot of high n lows...most lows...haha...the camp i had this time...the CL camp...i feel that it was really fun....i had learnt many things...closer bonds between our squad?dunno coz already veri close except for some...i dunno why...ok la...when we book in we r punished le..but those pains we suffered was worth because we all work as a team...happy n sad all together...from last time mayb our bonds like rock le...now may DIAMOND...hardest material ever...nth can break those bonds...i think that this camp was ratherr fun...how i wish our growth camp can be transform into another round of NPCC CL camp..i dun mind all test le...coz i iknow end of the day everything the CI did is all for ur own good...i think that wht i hate is the interview coz my confidence lvl was reallly veri low...i want to change but dunno how lei..haha...they ask mi wht post i want...seriously i dunno...since sec1 i eel that head of disilpline is wht i want during my sec3 CL life...but this time they sae we might not have it...i was like ragh!...nvm.,.den i feel ai ya whtever post the CI feel i m suitable at i dun mind taking coz as i put inflection form n told the CI that being a cadet n Cadet leader is already a challenge...i dun mind taking any post...those post given is wht u feel i m suit in...IF really i m given the pst i would surely do my best to help the unit...but all this i said i like say out veri werid...haha..last day i think that all is really trying to push the atmosphere to the highest peak...all veri hgih...damn hyper in all activities...we took photo debrief n award cermony...congrats to peng sian-most improve cadet,carmen-more knowledgeable cadet,hong leung.felicia best campers...haha... i think this camp group of mine is fun coz we all from CCU team all know each other quite well...my group[hel0-xuan ru,carmen,regina,felicia,me]...haha..i think this is the best camp i would ever had in my secondary skul life...because this is the camp i had been waiting for b4 allowing us to check if we r quilify to be a Cadet leader...n those sirs n mdms like Dun Hui Sir,Jason Sir,zHi Hui Sir,Meng Siang Sir,Shazly Sir,Serena Mdm,,Meng Lie mdm...
Dun Hui Sir: thanks for those enouragements given since sec2 n during CCu training...n being so lenient to us during the camp...n the letter u gave to us when we complete our CCU trainings...i would try to show the competencies to everyone...thanks
Zhi Hui Sir:Ever since being a NCO teaching us...i already feel that we should learn from u...as u already show great leadership to us n teach us wisely with patiences...thansk...wht u teach n those mistakes i had i would try to change
Jason Sir : dunno how to describe u...juz know u r a great leader...n when the last year speech day u lead the whole thing with zhi hui sir i really pei fu u...n the drills u teach the whole squad ytd really allow mi to feel wow...the things u teach u realli want high standard..more to a prefectionist... haha...
want to sae to all the Cis but i veri tired le...sorry...but i would sae THANKS...for all the efforts...i would believe everyone in the squad would enjoy n rmb this camp for life...n nv forget rule 24 n 26...
ONLI ENGLISH IS ALLOWED TO BE SPOKEN
ONE FOR ALL,ALL FOR ONE

Tuesday, February 26, 2008
@2/26/2008

in skul le...is so sian...now CCU has ended with regrets for mi as i dint get waht i want...n i9 think the brasha some responisblities should be balme by mi....i will explain becoz i already saw the limited twine...but i dint care still remain unchange in the pegging...i should not allow myself to continue this way as i could pegg innner...the time spend i could help others...sorry guys...i reallly hope the time could be return to the moment when we r goiung to start the compeititoin...we could be able to change the formation n maybe we can do it well...argh...wht done is done...we could npot do anything...haiish...so be it...sorry...tears flowing with disapointedments n regrets/....

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Saturday, February 02, 2008
@2/02/2008

Birthday today...but nth special...sianz la...haiish...thansk for those to greet mi?haha...but those greeting wun let mi change my mood...went npcc...today finally hit 15mins timeing...nid to get rid of 6more mins!...can we?i rlly hate this few days...i can onli said i m troubled...haiish...even wht i do no one will care...no one will change do anythign to it too...i m pissed off...fcuk it fcuk them all...i rlly heck care le...nth can make mi happy anymore...wht my apperarance show might not tally with wht my hear shows...in skul i saw someone writing on a table...but i agreed to it 100% "outside always laughing insider always crying"my is bleeding not crying!...i m tired off those life le...everyday i m gwroing older/...when i den could change my fate?haiish...everryday i gorw means everyday i m meeting my death?nth can appease me now...i chat with anyone in msg,msn i m always the one down...i m a failure...ok dun post le...i want to play pool!

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Monday, January 28, 2008
@1/28/2008

i rlly dunno whts happenign in my life...truely life sux i gt nth to say...i rlly hope those unhappiness could be gone soon...as those olife rlly sux...i feel veri terrible n had enough of those life...god bless sia...i dun wanna to have more miserable lifes...haiish...good plz bless b4 my birthday everything that hurts my heart or smth that affects mi would be goon rlly soon...by 2Feb plz change my life...haiish.5 more days...counting down...change of lifestyle n everythign within 5days?would it be able to be done???okay now in skul so cant use too long...nid find document for SOCIAL STUDIES le...take care everyne

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Saturday, January 26, 2008
@1/26/2008

i rlly hate wht i have now...i hope i m rlly not born bcoz i dun rlly gt wht i wht..haiish...i blogged 2 times today rly too sianz.now playing pool with stupid lim yan rui!beta sae thanks witrh yr knees on the floor...LOL...kidding..ask mi help u print yr dads document...haha...i m not rlly looking forward to tml show as i feel i would fall alsleep while watching...i dun rlly enjoy english shows at all..so so be it...i would watch it with my eys closes mouth open...wa... horified look...LOL..after that going parkway with parents shop n makan with my cousin girlfriend whom is going back to studi in erm forget with country le...my new year clothes r ready...woo hoo?lol...first day is gonna be 100% percent boring lunar new year 2th day i m going to enjoy well...n i m wearing pink...cousins spot mi out...lol...i finally understand wht mika sae that she once felt veri sad but is when she is alone...but with friends the laughter n appearance is different...but i tis few daays going back hm myself i finallyt understood it...n somemore there r no FOREVER FRIENDS!i gt nth else much to say...going to drink beer...it solves my truble...a broken heart could nv be amended...hear b4?haiish..i m sencing that now!...

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@1/26/2008

everytime i post is always sad i think...today i had a urge to tell everyone i feel that i m gonna to change to another person i think...bcoz i feel rlly useless la...cca i sudeenly dun feel a sence of belonging?whts happening with myself...for the 3 years of commitment i have been always trying to help in everything n havent failed to miss any trainings...now i feel another way...love training is a lie...pontaning is gonna be my life..i dun see a nid of mi in the unit anymore....now i m going for the sake of going...not saying no interest but little...i really want to change the mindset...but how could i?now in CCU team i feel troubled in many things n no peace as to many things...i m rlly sick n tired of this...n my birthday is coming..n there is a training also...shld or shldnt i come is another point of view...i dunno..haiish...who wants to be scolded or takan on his/her birthday..no one but now i feel that i nid to go for the training...how izzit now?my life is rll at a mess now...haiish...god plz plz save mi...i nid yr guide...guide mi through all obstancles n bring mi back to the normal life i always wanted...i rlly hope i m always at sec1...always loving to engage in wht i do...respect everyone...being helped out in many things...but i could not now...life is totally different..i suddenly miss those seniors that help mi out...haiish!

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Friday, January 25, 2008
@1/25/2008

i m rlly sick n tired of my life...really hate it...i feel like i m backstabed...i realli feel whtever i do is useless n extra...i m realli sick of this life...i really hope to achieve smth...but can i?i realli feel whtever i do i wun be recongise in ablilities...or wht....never...i did wht no one know...no one see i m realli tired,,hate it...heck care le

Saturday, January 19, 2008
@1/19/2008


yoz i m temporary back from blogging...rlly getting sick to blog also...everyday some home wht time le?monday meeting ets 5pm,tuesday tution till 5.30 reach hm already 6,wed 7 pus den reach home,thursday is the most mafan d day...everytime 9.30 den can reach hm..friday 8.30...sibei sianz...haiish...i m now feeling CCU d team work for bois team is cuming...we rlly tried to help each other juz the timing is not that good...juz today we rlly put effort to help each other even though the shelter cant make it...we r helping...hopefully the new shlelter will be able to be formed...n can be done asap...haiish..today went back d shi huo take bus one uncle ask mi to help for his phone...i have those back like look like a professional for phone?hmm...lucky i still did to rescue myself by helping him to whts his needs...haiish...
i m rlly sick n tired!...no more converse energy le

Saturday, December 29, 2007
@12/29/2007

haha...sorry veri long nv blog le...lazy n sick...haha...once agn...a veri belatred merry christmas...din do anything during christmas...slp...haha....den ytd n today npcc trg...woohoo...nice one...joined the campcraft thingy...haha....quite fun...not tired...haha...n gt my christmas gift from mika...thx...haha...lol....even if the item is how much i also will like...bcoz is the tot that co8unts not the amt of $..haha...trg okay...juz nid to bring bamboo sticks...like idiot..haha...i went up to the bus all the aunties n uncles looking at mi..so pai seh...haha,.,,but nvm,...2monts nia...haha...ok...nid to go see look thinggs le..n rest..haha

Sunday, December 23, 2007
@12/23/2007

rawk...back from the 2 chaltes in a row...missing it at safra...haiish..checked in le...jiu go pooling for my first time...is kanasai...haha...den play le getting in hand?lol..den went bbq...okay la...not bad...the food...gt beer d chicken...even though the taste not enough..but gt it...after that went bowling...haha...kanasai...68,70,79...those r my results...none went above 85!...haiish...den we saw shawn the i not stupid d boi...haha...den he actually borrowed my vb...so...surprised...lol...den nite we played poker...lose d will have ot drink alc d drinks...haha...4 bottles...damn zai...all drink abit nia...haha...den 6plus i went to slp...wake up at 8plus...damn song...raining...play mahjong...hhaa...with chips..den play pool agn...n bowling...haha...71!...rawk...is the last ball with help if not is pathetically low...den next day checkout le...lol..but mi love this chalet...todae juz came back form the another one...wow...ton agn...haha...parents play mahjong den i m looking...haha...play pool agn...play till quite shuang shou le...den i can tell u i m a failure who juz started learning how to ride a bicycle...but lucky within 15 mins pick it up le...haha...ok...nv slp for long hpurs...tired le...bye

Friday, December 14, 2007
@12/14/2007

i had been watching sea game the whole event...haha...damn sianz at hme...haha...den today last day...wow...finally i m watching soccer by singapore...bronze medal...haha...thrashed vietnam 5-0...go team singapore..?hmm...m i m going mad?lol...table tenis singapore gt all the gold medal...n swimming ranking number 1...nice one from tao li n nicolette teo...haha...den running ets...singapore JIA YOU...haha...todae singapore had lost in badminton...kendrick way to go...haha...den hmm...still gt wat...hmm...remy ong...haha...lcky sia...win by 1pin down to be the gold medalist....i rlly nth to post le...haha...i wanna go chalet!...19december come faster...18dec dun come...retake exams.!>..rawk!

Tuesday, December 04, 2007
@12/04/2007

rawk...i went badminton with min feng , xin yi jun de n jun de friend GILBERT...haha...go hougang community club...play...rawk...nowadays easily tired...n there i dun like the court...will book toa payoh d court beta n more space..haha..i plae till sweat like no body business...dehydration...hhaa...but is fun...after that went hougang mall to walk n went time zone...waste money...but realli worth...haha...went KFC makan...the water like plain water to me...haha...but nvm...den waited for parents ddden eat agn...lols...yam cake...den i saw joanne tan...the sec4 this year d..haha...okay lazy to post le...gonna watch tv bye...cya

Saturday, December 01, 2007
@12/01/2007

today i m realli in a fcuking low mood..i suddenly felt something...i dun realli felt being loved or dote by parents most of the time!...every thing i do parents dun seems to agree..everytime i said this...they will sae that!...whts this!...juz somethings i can feel...haiish..as wht i tot parents always dote more on elder son but i dun feel any!....no feel if being love...haiish...like wht...my younger brother wushu...they would sometimes stay n lookw hts he doing...n meet the parents session...i m always trying to behave well in klaz except for sometimes...talk or wht due to boredom!...they havent even meet the teacher they would sae"can i dun go surely u would have bad comments" realli there is a something i felt in my life if i did something wrong juz once...they would think i would do the second time...juz in parents meeting session...juz primary one...i was said as a talkative n have bad learning attitude boi...but i tried to change till now...the comments of teeachers had improved...they would sae this time nv disgrace mi...i realli felt veri..haiish...can i dun stay in this world?whts this!or maybe is bcoz i m loved by them 3years more than my brother?not saying i m jealous...juz that i dun feel ..........haiish...dunno how to describe....so i always write LIFE SUX...haiish,,,i m going to break down soon...haiish...

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Friday, November 30, 2007
@11/30/2007

haha...i m back from genting...kinda nice...i reach golden mile at 6.50am...n saw xin yi dere...haha...at transtar...dun wanna go call her bcoz she was talking to ??? i dunno...haha...reah genting at 2plus...checked in...dden went to eat KFC...den we went to play bumper car...6 person..my dads friend...n my family...all veri clode so...haha...we played that game onli bcoz we went to eat lunch at 3pm!...den finish ia alreaady 3.30...play one game 4pm..lols...den went to see the outdoor theme park coz too free...we ate ice cream in genting...haha...den my dads friend is fcuking scared of cold den we went back to eat dinner...at food court...haha.,..went back hotal after that...chat hat chat den go bath watch tv whereas parents went casino...haha...i watch tv till 3 they cum back,,,,den slp...second day morning we went to pray at chin swee temple...haha...sweating profusing!...haha...then we went to eat den off we go to outdoor theme park playing the games...den we play a number of games den we playted the flying dragon...last game i played...as when i played it started raining...n the smell of engine is veri strong...veri smelly...haha...lucky i m safe...lols...den i played the arcade with 5 free games as i dunno some one taped the card too mani times so i played...n gt alot of the coupons...haha...den there s basket ball veri kelian...onli 3 balls...best score there onli 70plus...den eat agn..n ice cream...wht basket robin or wht...as wht my mum sae sing dun have this d...jhaha...ok den play game agn...haiish veri sianz lah...to type out...hhaa..lazy to type le...going to slp n rest agn...everyday slp at 3-4 den wake up at 7plus 8...haha

Thursday, November 22, 2007
@11/22/2007

hello...i m back from posting...haha...okay...i m quite used to mi new phone le...is juz thta the battery is easily flat!...rawk!....STUPID yan rui..make my phone the batt drop one bar...trying to charge every three days sia..this type of rate tml nid to charge le!...my aunt came n give me donuts from my cousin who is doing assignment like selling donuts!...haha...okay lazy to blog le...i dunno wht i thinking now.!...rawk~!..going gneting on 26november

Monday, November 19, 2007
@11/19/2007

i m back agn..lols...today tuition is okay..play prank...my friend all not in the mood..so they go ajust the time...by 10mins...lols...this is the first time they ajust so much...for real..last time ahmad ajusted 1hour...haha..lols...we change it bak..okay after that i went home myself actually den when i reach the MRT station i took out my phon den realise my dad is fetching me...my 4months of lessons he is fetching me the 3rd time...hhaa....lols...den we went to roam around at toa payoh hub,,,actually wanna buy sony d 910...but end up bought 5610...xpress music...hhaa....use my dad d line...thx papa...he had bought my didi game boy DS lite ytd n bought me my phone todae...n spend alot...hhaha...okay stop le...tml cant go the metier v the ushering duty bcoz parents dun wanna...sorry councillors...lols...

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@11/19/2007

sorry realli veri long nv blog le...abit tired of it...sianz...haha...today went sim lim square to get a DS lite for yr didi...parents paid obviously...haha...he had longed one since last year...lols...because of his results my parents bought one for him....is realli expensive..haha...for me?handphine..they sae w910 is still on the high end...n my dad is getting his voucher soon..so hopefully i can get one phone i like soon too...my plan d contract will be ending at christmas?oh is one day b4...haha...lols...rawk!...is midnight 2.36 n i m still posting...going tuition later at 2pm...12hours more...haha...okay dun blog le...bcoz i m going friendster...rooting soon...

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Sunday, November 11, 2007
@11/11/2007

todae class bbq...kinda fun?Zzz....enjoyed it?nahz...abit too sianz...but is expected bcoz condo iiish like this...no life...can do anything d...heex...so wun fel disapointed..i,hong leung,hong zhou n afew were bbq-ing...heez...kinda fun...lols...stop le den eat den walk around n do alot of things lah...wil up date more on tusaday...bcoz tml going my dads friends house warming...den monday tution!rawk!

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Monday, November 05, 2007
@11/05/2007

life at home suz...realli nth to do...haiish...todae went tution with my eyes almost close...too sianz le ...hols mood...wahaha...18dec still got test..dun think can do well bcoz my heart still have a havey stone not put down yet...wahhaha...but nvm..tried my bets jiu hao le...i gonna to slp soon...eyes veri tired...brain full of numbers now...physics all numbers,maths all numbers,,,wahaha/....but nvm...haiish...suddenly have the urge of going to chalet asap...dec 19-23 chalets...2 different one...one after next...wahaha...but nvm...gonna to enjiy that that tym..others all suffering/rotting at home...okay dun post le...bye

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Friday, November 02, 2007
@11/02/2007

sry guys...back posting...whole week dun seems to have skul hols...go back skul...wahaha...but nvm!...wahhaa...i m a good boy willing to study...LOL...but go klaz always dozing off bcoz i m playing msg,n alot of things always till 3am den slp...den wake up at 7..OMG...5*4=20..onli 20hours for 5 dae.s..lols...haiish...wonder if i can realli do wat i sae forget everything...wanna drink "meng po tang" to forget everything...den everything will b fine...haiish...ok hack care le...bye

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Friday, October 26, 2007
@10/26/2007

i simply hated todae alot bcoz friends separation...but i had entered a klaz that i always wanna...this is really worth celcrating but the separation realli hurts me alot...my heart bleeding...tears uncontrollable oozing out...haiish..i entered 3E2..with combine scis... humanities :geo n ss...n triple maths:poa,e maths,a mths...but i really cant accept the fact that friends are gone for good...there is no frenz 4eva there is always tempoarary frenz...haiish...i really somehow feel that i m veri veri bonded with this klaz...RESPECT 1...forever the one that nv forget...1314 rmb u...u brought me joy n tears...n let me learnt mant things n sorry for those whom i had offended...n todae meet the parents...really cry le...i nid to retake my english paper to see if i reallt cherish the chance for entering express coz Mr Mok said alot of things to my mum...n said wat i most deserve to be pushed up bcoz i m consistant in my studies,have good learning attitude...etc etc...THX Mr Mok for yr everything n i wun forget the kindness that had led me to...n thx for the teachers whom supported in pushing me up to EXPRESS klaz...thx for yr everything...i would not forget...RESPECT ONE WILL ALWAYS B IN MY HEART...all wishes...jia you next year...dun play le....

Monday, October 08, 2007
@10/08/2007

sianz...results gonna b out...i gonna to flunk everything...no matter wat i aso no mood to do anything le...i m dead...ghost...always.dead...haiish...results juz aim high...but still will get low...everything is like this aim high...d higher yr hopes d higher will yr disappointment is...haiish...lazy to post le...

Friday, October 05, 2007
@10/05/2007

haiish exams finally finishing...haiish...this term sux!...i hate it!...2Oct...5.31pm...declared death on my own...i m no longer existing in this world...haiish...everything sad,etc was gone..i had lost my feel..i was stap on my heart with a knife...n d wound was very deep...haiish...lost everything in a min...no frenz...no familes!...nth!...no nth!...haiish...no feel at anything nwo...haiish...exams hopefully can get through by a pass

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Sunday, September 30, 2007
@9/30/2007

i m back...but gg study soon...haha...sry nv post fing long...sianz...life sux...exams sux!...haish...fail for sure....haiish...tml hist...nt started studying...lols...i dun wanna tok abt anything le...sianz...no matter how hard i try...no matter how much effort i put in i wun get d fruit...haiish...but nvm...inside heart gt it can le...may not know wat i toking...haiish...suan le...juz now go golden mile at bras basah there eat...saw andy...wahaha...mid autumn nv meet todae meet...grow taller agn...wahaha...i wana aso...lol...

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Sunday, September 16, 2007
@9/16/2007

todae my mummy birthday...celebrate by having steamboat at home..inviting my aunt n cousins etc...ate alot of things...fattening...wahaha...haiish...den went to collect cake..n went with a broken unbrella...with my cousins...wahaha...den go popular see see look look..went to buy a graph book...haha...den go collect d cake..2kg...60bucks...pocket broke le...haha...ok nvm...going to cut le...bye...dun post le...till aft exams buai...

@9/16/2007

todae went sku for service day...dunno wat d use...got badge i heard...wahaa...greed...wahaha...sianz...walked around...haha...saw obseen things... haiish...aft that went home...rest awhile went to makan...wahaha...den go watch 881...finally... e show not realli funni but i finally understand wat is HIV actually is holy innocent virgin...wahaha...e show sae d.. b4 that saw wei ting...heex...lame show...haha...lazy to post le bye...tc

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Friday, September 14, 2007
@9/14/2007

hey guys i m back...haha...sry...nv update...nv on com..this few days...veri guai...haha...n hmmm...everyday go home unless gt oral or cca...argh...i m feeling veri hot...with aircon oning veri cold le...drank le vodka...5percent...n i m feelin hot!haha...erm oral is argh!...crap...super nervous...end le still b time keeper...hhaha...stupid job!...haha...okay lah...friday juz now npcc...pt...argh!...crunches die le...must train...pumping still no kid...wahha...coz train to do 25 to ......hahah....i train myself d kayys!>..wahha...haiish...tml still nida go sku...sianz...coz wat service...go lor...haha...dun really care..bleh!...wahaha...okay lahz...tym to sae bye n nite...going to see pple blog le...coz long tym nv enter!...or i mean long tym nv use computer!

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Sunday, September 09, 2007
@9/09/2007

hey...i really no tym to post aft this week?wahaha...coz exams around d corner le...haiish...ytd went naval base to makan...their sku 50th years d dinner...becoz my uncle is one of a sac dere...haiish...in long forget le..den tml...actually wanna to go watch 881 but no tickets at jubilee n amk hub n j8...end up so shop at j8 ntuc..bought a hooch...5percent alch onli..haha...but at least something...haisih ..sianz...tml tuition..den tuesday mama birthday but ORAL...guys wish me luck..LOL

Friday, September 07, 2007
@9/07/2007

erm...todae went to sku...
nth to do..except for studying
argh!...recording...wahha...
scary...haa...aft that went j8
with jk...bought buy some craps.
den go funland play daytona...
den saw wilson..
den go amk hub...walk walk with jk
saw stella..n wen kang...
erm nth to post le..
veri sianz..
exams around d corner..
take care bye

Wednesday, September 05, 2007
@9/05/2007

sianz...nth to do during hols...went to sku today...haha...lessons so short tym...haha... i dun wanna hols..nth to do...since exams coming...i wanna study but when computer is on..i tend to use non-stop without stoping...argh!...haha...i wanna drink wine beer hard liqour now!...aha...who got...give me..LOL...haha...okat take care..dun wanna post le..lazy..bye...love everyone...awaiting for friday!

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Sunday, September 02, 2007
@9/02/2007

hello guys...yoz is hols but still nida go sku..haha...today pray for 7th month...wow alot of tibits...eat alot..play poker etc...past tym..wahaha...even though play monopoly money as my cousin dun wanna play real cash so...haha...but without real money is aso veri fun n shuang when u win..haha...dinner was fabulous???haha...sort of...yummy.. prawns, crab , bao yu...etc etc...wahha...have wat expensive food i jiu ate wat lor...haha...drunk le???drinka lot???haha... kaes...not drunk at all...ready to drink more...LOL>...juz drink 8 percent no kid bahz...LOL...haha... ready to try long island....11 percent...i shall try it d next tym...LOL..okay...now think is about tym to go slack...<s>lol

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Friday, August 31, 2007
@8/31/2007

hello...guys..see so guai...at home...er m got back results le...not good...even though all pass..disappointed..my english deprove like siao...got 50.2 onli....must buck up...haha...wat i have to sae today...hmmm this few days in sku slacking even though nid to do d banner...den never sianz...haha...today aso...teachers day...fork out money to buy cake...n some tibits...but sianz...lah...haiish...duunno wat to sae le...bye...tc post next tym...bye...haiish...withoout her is sianz

Saturday, August 25, 2007
@8/25/2007

hello guys...sry this few days veri down coz of......LOL...haiish...i shld sae my tution teacher treated me veri well as in the understanding of mine is poor he called my mum to let me go down for tution but i juz cant concentrzte as well as i expected...haiish...hopefully i can score well as expected...science really d teacher nth to sae coz he lesson he tutored me 1 to 1 is FOC ok...haha...he sae juz coaching me onli...haha...den hmmm wat to post...erm really with tution my freedom had grown lesser agn...n end year is coming no more NP sianz...no increasement of badges sianz!>...<...haiish...den ytd np test for total defence silver...sry cheryl cant really help...most things u type..sry...haha...hopefully we are able to pass...ok aft that went to eat hokkien mee den went home slp at 9...juz woke up...haha..when i woke is is 5.45...haha...

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Monday, August 20, 2007
@8/20/2007

hello guys i knew u guys miss my blog...LOL...ytd went to my grandma n aunty house...praying for d 7 month...haha...pray le...jiu go burn incenses paper..LOL...pray le jiu makan good food..yummy...hhaa....wat tibits aso gt...den went my aunts hse...go play da lao er...haha...to pass time..wahaha...played for 5 hours???ya...abt that...LOL..playing agn on 2th sept...LOL...hha...we played 3 kakis d onli...bleh:p...LOL...haha...ok take care coz now in science...lata going tution...last tym dun hab i wanna...now got i veri sainz...haha...ok bye...

Saturday, August 18, 2007
@8/18/2007

hey...dudes...hhaa...today went to see fireworks..haha...juz laming bahz...haha...eat dinner so fast...go eat steamboat nida rush...haha...abt 8 den start den cook etc den ... 8.30 finsih...eat with no peace...lol..kidding..still okay lahz...juz see is late den we started chiong...haha...den finsih eating le go kallang river d one side to take a look...haha...nice lahz...but take photo veri blur..haha...okay i m going tution laio kaes...finally...nida b guai kia...haha... okay end here bahz..everyne take care...i lazy to post..

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Friday, August 17, 2007
@8/17/2007

today was a happy day for d unit???grand event..haha...floorball competition, sec1 swearing in cermony...haha..actually rain, den parade ground was like wet til...we cleared den d games started for 30 mins it rained agn...haha...den in hall...we won...haha...every match...i should sae Chuek Fan,PHS, is veri pro sia...he could make tons of stuns...haha...we won every match by penalty,Mayflower and PHS,all is penalty den we won champion d...haha...mayflower n phs gt high sticks den we attacked them by this...den we won...if not is really a tight fight...okay...since we won..lets cheer...haha...
Thanks Siti mdm n others who made this a success...haha...ok...take care guys

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Thursday, August 16, 2007
@8/16/2007

hello guys...haha...miss me...no bahz..all heart like metal d...hahax...jkjk...LOL...haiish...i post bcoz i juz wanna to sae abt d live shoot during HTA...haha...yay...veri fun...but nervous..this tym quite disappointed with my results even though i pass...haiish...i expect at least 58 but end up onli 51 out of 60...haiish...nvm..haha...den zzz...wednesday inter house finally purple is not last...haha...second...great improvement...halfway throguh d games i went to NPCC d site coz training for tml...haha...competition...zhi hui train us...thanks...hahax...gt shu kee, jason also lah...haha...LOL...haiish...g2g..bye...
Anyway Happy Birthday Charissa...haha...

Saturday, August 11, 2007
@8/11/2007

haiish...sianz...today went to my uncle coffee chop to makan...haha...steamboat buffet...hahax...quite enjoyable..aha...alot of good stuff to eat...haha...went to get tons of food...haha...mussles etc etc...veri full..hahax...my cousins went to d boys toilet...haha...so funny...LOL...wen n yan...dun b too angry eh...hahax...LOL...we had eaten at least 2 kgs or prawns..haha...den crab..they count inside d bill...there is 3 pathetic ones...ahah...okok...veri full lah....hahax...den ice cream hhaa...eat 2...yummy..LOL...haiish...nth to post le...will post more on friday...hopefully is a honourable one...haha...ok...cya...must go chiong hw if i hardworking enuf..or i will fail my chinese...hhaa...kaes nite...

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